Back to Driving Basics and More

It must be because I’ve been riding in a car with my best friend behind the wheel, so two nights ago, over nothing, I tried driving again. It has been probably a year since I last sat behind the wheel and I completely believed that I might have forgotten whatever driving skills I used to have. But, as my brother told me “it’s like riding a bike, you never forget it.” So to prove (or disprove) that, I suddenly sat in the driver’s seat while my bro was buying something from a store. At first, I couldn’t make the car go forward; I was literally stuck on standstill for maybe 2 minutes. But when it started running, things were pretty ok. So I’m not a smooth driver still, never was, but hey I reached the house and never ako namatayan ng makina. That is something. It’s not like I’m bent on driving outside the village, I just want to practice because who knows I might have to drive one day. But that’s really all up in the air now because I hate driving, especially here in Metro Manila where traffic is just horrifying. Last week I hitched a ride with my best friend Kay from Makati to QC and it took us three hours to reach home. Traffic was so bad that I think we got to the point where we didn’t have anything more to talk about, and I heard a song played three times in the same station. Ganun ka-grabe. And I know how much of a bummer it is to be the driver in a traffic jam, coz I remember my driving instructor made me drive in real narrow roads with heavy traffic, I had cramps after. And if I’m gonna have to experience that everyday, hmmm, nahhh.

My other best friend once suggested to me “why not get a bike instead?” Hahaha. Me in a bike. A very unlikely sight. But on a different note, it is he who is getting a cool bike soon. He showed me photos and it looks real cool and such a beauty. I forgot what they are called but they are supposed to be vintage bikes of Italian model, a Gilera I think. Pretty sweet if you ask me. And yes, Ole has finally raised the white flag and said sorry for our real petty fight a week ago. Haha! So I’m the stronger one. He has gone back to Thailand last night ‘though, to prepare for a tournament fight in Turkey later this month. So why is he getting a bike? No idea. And I’m not supposed to badmouth him about investing on a vintage motorcycle that will stay only in the Philippines even if he’s not a resident of Pinas because he will not let me ride the bike with him if I do. Hey the bike is pretty neat based on the photos and I would wanna try riding that, but only as a passenger. So yeah Ole, the bike is a real investment. I totally love it.

It was weird, when I called him last night while he was waiting for his flight back to Thailand, I felt sad after, even if he promised he’d be back by the end of the month or early October. I really didn’t get to see much of him while he was here, coz he was mainly busy with training or casting and we also had a fight which lasted for about a week. But we kept in touch mostly through text or phone calls. I dunno, I guess it’s much more comforting to know he’s just around. That I can see or talk to him anytime I want to, which is not the case when he is back home in Thailand. I like it that his life is a bit more laid back here in Pinas, whereas when he’s in Thailand, he’s just so busy with the gym. But like he said, “u know I gotta go, coz I need to make money”. So ok, as long as my boy would be back!

Lately I have been sleeping late at night, against my will, and I know that this is because of some guy. Argh. For the longest time I have been so uninterested about men and a couple of weeks back, I found one who is interesting enough to merit my attention. Thing is, he’s not interested in me, I can tell it and I can feel it and that’s such a bummer. I’m starting to think something might be seriously wrong with me and my social skills coz guys are starting to label me as, snobby, masungit, miss stiffness, and God knows what else. And I’m like “huh?”. If you’re not the type who says hi to everyone she sees snob ka na agad? Or don’t I have the right to stay silent during mornings coz my system is not up and running yet, so they can go ahead and call me masungit?

So okay, back to this guy, I swear, it’s not because he’s gwapo, he’s just cute. But as I get to know him better, it’s his totality that draws me near him. He sounds so solid, like he always knows what he’s talking about. And he always has a counterstatement for every rebuttal that I make on his statements. I like it that he’s honest about his past, no matter how ugly it may be. He doesn’t pretend to be this perfect guy and admits his faults and recklessness as a youngster. He has big dreams for himself, which is very important to me when liking a guy. If a guy doesn’t have dreams, he’s bound to reach or achieve nothing. He’s different, and I like that about him because it makes him standout. Most of all, he’s just a natural, no pretenses, what you see is what he is.

But despite all that, I can’t even seem to get him at least interested in me. It’s always me who asks questions, it’s always him making kwento, and me listening. I don’t mind it really, the listening part, but I’m also not manhid to feel hey, this is going one-way. I wanted to think it’s just me being paranoid but I asked a good guy friend, Chris, and he just a matter-of-factly told me “if he doesn’t ask questions, or doesn’t seem to want to know more about you, then by normal guy standards it means he’s not that into you.” Heck I’ve read about that in books and it’s kinda starting to hurt my ego.

I totally don’t need a new guy friend. Puh-leeze.