Financial Pressures
September 16, 2005I remember back in college, I was probably the most eager to graduate. When all of my friends wanted to extend their stay in school as long as they can, when everyone else was scared of stepping into the “real world”, I was excited. I guess it’s but normal if you started going to school at the age of 3, like me. By the time I reached college, I feel I have spent way too much time and almost my whole life studying that I just can’t wait but get over it.
Finish school, find a job, work, and have my own money. Although I didn’t make such grandiose plans for myself like I need to earn my first million at age X or I have to be in X position by age X, I just wanted to stop asking from my parents for everything. I feel they’ve done more than enough, it’s time I make it on my own. True to my plans, I worked a month after graduation. I actually had a job offer even before graduation but I told them to wait until I graduate. It was cool to have my own money, but I also learned thereafter that I don’t really just work for money so I went from one job after another until I got satisfied.
My parents told me when I started working, “ok lang kahit hindi ka na magbigay, wag ka na lang manghingi”. Although I wasn’t really able to follow that all the time, especially when I’m switching jobs, I mostly spent for myself, bought my own clothes, paid my own bills, etc.
So now I’m moving out. And I’m scared as hell. First of all I didn’t realize it’s so hard to raise money for my own downpayment. I scraped as much as I can and I’m scared of the future financial issues I will be facing for sure. I haven’t even moved in yet and I’m already having a headache. Makes me wonder if I’m doing the right thing or not.
Yoko na maging adult. Ang hirap. Now I know why my friends didn’t wanna leave school at first.
